I've really made it no secret that I haven't enjoyed New Jersey. It's too expensive. Too many people live here. No one knows how to drive. People say 'water' weird.
Basically, it's not home. We now know our asses belong firmly in the Midwest and we can't wait to get back. (24 days!) Pretty much since we moved here, nothing has gone right. We were so hopeful about things working out here. But we kept getting sign after sign that New Jersey was not right for us (you can read the past 2 years of my blog to find out specifics).
We keep chalking this whole thing up as "life experience." So, although New Jersey didn't work out, I did learn some things.
1. Sean and I will be able to make it through anything.
I know I gush about Sean often on here. But, I can't even begin to explain how I feel about him. He's my best friend, dare I even say, soul mate. Things have always been so easy with him. From the moment we met, it just felt right. I've been told that we look like we "match" each other.
We got married on June 25, 2011. On July 15, 2011 we arrived in NJ. We're not really good at spacing things out. We kinda like to do more than once thing at once. So, getting married and immediately moving away from the home we knew seemed crazy to a lot. But, we had each other and that was good enough for us at the time.
The last 2 years have not been easy for us. Between our financial struggles, filing for bankruptcy, having no family here, fertility issues, 2 miscarriages and grad school...we're tired, y'all. We are very much looking forward to things just being easy for a while. Good news instead of bad news. I know that Sean and I can make it through anything. Even though we've had stressor after stressor thrown at us...we're still here. We're still strong (and stronger than ever). I know that we'll face other challenges in the future. But we're both so confident that we can weather any storm.
2. Don't take your friends and family for granted.
I've talked about this before. There are many friendships that I have neglected. Being out here without friends has been an eye opening experience. Sure, I've made a few friends here. But, there was a long period of time where I really had no friends here, and that was very hard for me to handle. I have so many people I Plan to reconnect with once I'm home. I also plan to see my family more often. I miss them and I know that I need to see them more. I need them in my life.
3. I'm kinda awesome.
Historically, I've not given myself a lot of credit. Not really seeing my self worth. But I need to stop that. I'm strong. I'm resilient. I'm compassionate. I made it through grad school, despite all of my personal issues. I really have no doubt that I'm going to be an awesome social worker. I'm going to be an awesome mother.
I'm really excited for our future. Our days in New Jersey are winding down very quickly. I have met some amazing people here who I will never forget and hope that I'm able to keep in touch with (Thanks, Facebook!). Maybe you all should move out of NJ too and come with us. :-) I've learned some great life lessons. I'm thankful you can always go home.
I can't wait to get home, Missouri.
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