At the end of May, we met with our new fertility doctor. He is very nice and very thorough (which I appreciate). Anyway, we have a plan that I'm pretty happy with.
Tomorrow I have to have another HSG done. (Click here to read about my first one). The doc wants to do this just to make sure there aren't any other issues/blockage since I had the surgery in April. So, while I'm not looking forward to that again, I will be happy to know for sure. Then, assuming all is well, we will start Clomid again next cycle.
So basically, the plan will go back to where we were in October. Clomid. Ultrasounds. I'm ready. Sean is ready. Now that we are all settled & school is done I have very few stressors now, which should also help. I don't plan to write much about the process unless something drastic happens. Also, I don't plan to write about it because when I do get pregnant again, very few people will know until well past 20 weeks. Not that we won't be excited. I just want to be very vigilant.
I had my first extended experience with a baby this past weekend. Very good friends of ours has a one year old. Well actually, her birthday is coming up. I knew that I would not be ready for a birthday party. I told them this and they understood. So, we went to see them this past weekend to give her a present. It was amazing to see how much she has grown and all of the things she can do now. It was fun to spend time with her.
After we left I cried. Once I had my moment, I was fine. It's been almost 4 months and I still think about her every day. I think about where I would be in my pregnancy. I think about the fact that I would have a baby next month. Then I see their daughter and how amazing she is and it just breaks my heart that it's not our time yet. I know it's coming. Both Sean and I are pretty optimistic that we'll have a baby at some point next year. I know as more time passes, it'll get easier and easier to be around children. We're so determined to have our baby. And we'll make it happen.
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