She's been on my mind a lot lately. I miss her.
It's hard not to think about it, especially this week. I'm feeling ok going into it. And I know that once the date passes, it may become easier. Eventually.
It hurts to have an empty room in our place that should be a nursery. But, I'm also optimistic that soon, we'll be able to do that. I have Bootsie's Star Certificate & Star Map hanging outside of the future nursery. I think it's the most appropriate place for it. I really am optimistic about the future. It took me a while to get here, but it's a good place to be.
I'm thankful that I'm now working. It provides a good distraction so I'm not just thinking about it all of the time. Not that I ever want to forget her or the love I still feel for her. I'll always have that feeling and will always think of her.
There's not really a lot to say that I haven't already said in the past. So, I'll just end with a poem I found:
The world may never notice
If a Snowdrop doesn't bloom,
Or even pause to wonder
If the petals fall too soon.
But every life that ever forms,
Or ever comes to be,
Touches the world in some small way
For all eternity.
The little one we long for
Was swiftly here and gone.
But the love that was then planted
Is a light that still shines on.
And though our arms are empty,
Our hearts know what to do.
Every beating of our hearts
Says of our love for you.
~ Author Unknown
If a Snowdrop doesn't bloom,
Or even pause to wonder
If the petals fall too soon.
But every life that ever forms,
Or ever comes to be,
Touches the world in some small way
For all eternity.
The little one we long for
Was swiftly here and gone.
But the love that was then planted
Is a light that still shines on.
And though our arms are empty,
Our hearts know what to do.
Every beating of our hearts
Says of our love for you.
~ Author Unknown
